Friday, April 30, 2021

Huh. Been a while. Things have changed but I mean have they?

 I'm 30 now. That's a big difference. Kinda. I mean I was 29 when I last posted so is it really that big of a difference? If you ask my internal monologue it sure is. Is it really though? My grandpa told me the best years of your life are in your 30's. People take you seriously and you're usually an established man in control of finances and able to keep up with life without much help. That kind of describes me. I'm certainly good at maintaining my life at this point without much help. 

I live in a very cheap apartment near downtown Grand Rapids. "Beer city USA". Heh heh that's us. Us and every other medium small sized midwestern city. I have a lot of money saved up from my previous job who paid me way too much money and needed someone with way more skills than I have so when my contract ended they just kinda didn't hire me back on. Which is shitty. But I mean it could be worse right? After that I tried to get unemployment and I applied and waited for someone to call me about it but nobody ever did and I fired off some emails but never heard anything back. So I'm living on my own supply right now. But I live very cheaply and don't need to spend much. Maybe might be spending a bit more with nice weather coming up.. I'd better get a job soon. 

So far, I've entered my 30's losing net worth and spending my time.. what.. playing minecraft (

still dude? 

yeah what. I like it. it's a fun game and when you play it with mods it becomes a whole other thing.

are you trying to justify your addiction to a game about placing colorful blocks in pleasing shapes? yeah... 

ok lol.

)? 

Getting better at cooking? Who cares. Not making you any money. I am definitely getting fatter as a result though which is super great. 

Walking?
Just WALKING?? 

Well like 7 miles every couple days..

I mean that's not bad but like.. you used to run. Less distance for sure but you were RUNNING. You did 5 miles once. That's not bad (laughing face emoji). But lately you've been doing a lot of idling. Just sitting around eating food and watching videos on your phone. Reading occasionally. MANGA, dork. 

Yeah reading mostly manga. IT IS READING. 

Fuck! I am kind of a manchild. It's gross. I need to start working out again. Just go to the gym. You'll be fine. You probably won't get covid. You're a week away from being fully vaxxed to the maxx so maybe start this week by just doing SOMETHING to get a sweat up. 

Anyway. Life is a big strange journey isn't it?

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