as time trudges on
the beaches erode and the sea consumes the land
stagnation is truly impossible in this life.
the sea truly is the cruelest mistress.
wow hey gang here I am again back at it again with the white vans. I am in Illinois for work once more. Do I miss it? No absolutely not. Absolutely not at all. At least I'm getting paid more. I'm with several coworkers. They do not believe one should live extravagantly on the company dime.
They do not believe in the one possible act of rebellion with respect to being employed at a multi million dollar company. I suppose they're right in a way. One probably shouldn't drink and eat well in excess on company money, but man oh man do I want to. It's not all bad. We went to an irish pub and it happened to be half st paddy's day which was fun. We got free drinks and some green beads.
Didn't even have to expose our breasts.
I do not miss living this life.
I do not miss being in hotels.
I do not miss driving hours upon end in foreign cars (not the cool kind just the normal kind).
I do not miss missing my friends.
I do not miss being alone.
I do not miss any of this.
But this is.. my life again.
I guess it is inevitable. I guess I'll start bringing my guitar again so I can have something to do.
Maybe I'll meet another girl in a foreign country.
Maybe I can be happy again.
Probably not though.
Man..
